just a quick first bloggage.

this blog is for the people without a myspace. if its to be found over there, its to be found here.
so:

Obs (from work) pulled me aside and told me in a very serious tone:

"Bryan, you a young boy. you work very hard, you make the money, and so get good pussy. Pussy very important. Lonliness, you know lonliness, this word? It is not good for the man. And when you put your finger in the first time, you smile. And if it is good, then you eat the pussy. Remembah' that."

now imagine a 7 foot african army general who killed 100's of people on the oppressive side of some war saying this to you in his Barry White voice.....i cried laughing

this is my most recent blog elsewhere, so i start with it here:

"i amaze myself

i amaze myself with how much i change month to month.
i feel so strongly about things, at the moment, but i look back, and thats not how i feel now. i used to do drugs, i used to be straight edge, i used to hate jobs, i used to not be a workaholic, i used to dumpster dive everyday, i used to want to stay single, i used to hate so much, i used to love so much. i used to be pretty fuckin good at picking a lock, i used to snowboard alot, i used to skate, i used to do parkour, i used to be very lonely, i used to play guitar, i used to read alot, i used to hate ipods, i used to smoke cloves, i used to roll my own, i used to smoke
camels, i used to think i'd never smoke newports, i used to keep my room clean, i used to not run into vans with the car, i used to watch tv everyday, i used to hate history, i used to work out, i used to go camping, i used to be able to land a tre-flip, i used to have no money, i used to watch alot of porn, i used to meditate every morning and night, i used to stretch, i used to sleep, i used to hate tatoos, i used to be an atheist, i used to drink tea, i used to enjoy the stars, i used to hang out with evan everyday, i used to have insurance, i used to feel at home, i used to go to protests, i used to never over sleep, i used to be creative, i used to write a zine, i used to be outspoken, i used to eat real meals, i used to drink water,

ok im running out. i've found myself saying "i used to" alot lately. but i dont really feel like my life is really devoid of anything, more that each thing has settled into place, or is slowly balancing in.

the other day someone asked me: "whats the main focus in your life right now?"

and all i could think of was the things i wish were the main focus, or the things that used to be.
im not suggesting anything here...but its some interesting thoughts."

so there ya go.

my only respnse to that blog is the following quote from a mediocre movie:

"You see life is like that. We change, that's all. You see, the guy I am now is not the guy I was then. If the guy I was then met the guy I am now he'd beat the shit out of me. Those are the facts."